Skinny Fat

You know how there are those crazy people on the internet who look at perfect Kate Upton and call her fat. Well I'm a UK size 10 in most of the sane world that's perfectly average even quite thin for some yet I get called fat. I had a convo recently that really got to me and this is why I feel the need to talk about it. My super skinny (I don't say this as to be shaming skinny people but in this scenario, she sees her weight as ideal) friend and I were sharing a seat. When she to the bathroom, I suggested to her boyfriend (also skinny) that he give her his seat as I was feeling a little crapped. He said "I need the seat I have, you girls have cushion to sit on those hard seats and I don't" I replied "She is just like you she doesn't have any cushion"  (if you don't get the cushion reference, we mean ass).

When I was out of the room that message somehow got misconstrue to her and she took offence. She was sulking to him and then the most vindictive statement came from his lips "Well if she can tell you that you don't have an ass then you can tell her that she's fat." Yes all 120lbs of me is considered fat, in the eyes of friends and family. I didn't say anything at the time but I shriveled up on the inside, my near two months of gym and healthy eating was not being noticed and in that moment I felt like I shouldn't eat again...ever.

This could have very well been the start of a blog of how I got an eating disorder. I don't think people realize how there words hurt. I have pretty tough skin but after a while it gets to you. I took the liberty to write to down as fuel for my fitness goals but also to make me gain control over words people throw around recklesslessly. So here that's list:
1."Can we tell her that she's fat?
2. "You can't wear that!"
3. "Lose some weight around your waist"
4."You're so greedy"
5."You've gained some weight since I last saw you"
6. "Your boobs are too big"
I've probably said some worst things to myself but at the end of the day the only way to lose weight is to do the healthy way. I can't quicken the process, it didn't take me a month to gain and it's not going to take a month to lose. Don't let people's harmful words hinder your progress or make you ever feel less beautiful than you are. **
Queue John Legend You & I**